Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Calculated Risks

The weather and conditions in Charlotte have been interesting.
  • Monday it basically snowed all day long and everything was canceled/closed, but actually, the road conditions weren't too terrible.  My office was closed and I had the day off.
  • Tuesday, the snow had stopped and over night it we had received a bunch of freezing rain.  This actually made the conditions worse, because it was still so cold out and any moisture/snow stuck to the ground was now ice.  This prompted more closings and delays, but more things were open Tuesday than Monday.  I had a two hour delay, and went in to work. 
  • Today (Wednesday) we are basically in the same situation as yesterday: still cold, still icy.  It seemed to warm up enough to melt things a little more today.  More places also seem to be open today than the previous two days, thus progress.
Still, it didn't occur to me that we might actually have another 2 hour delay at work today like we did yesterday.  This idiot who didn't bother to check if work was still on or not faithful soldier got suited up and went into work, only to find out that we were again delayed and basically gave my job two hours of my life that I'll never get back.  Booooo!!  I even asked if I could leave early to give myself back the two hours, but my boss wouldn't go for it.

In other news, I did what is likely to be my last training run before the marathon.  I did 3 (slow) miles on my work treadmill last night.  It actually felt good, especially after the first mile when things seemed to loosen up.  I stretched after and headed home.  So far, if anything I've actually felt better after this run than worse, which I think is very encouraging.  I need that right now.  A lot.

Yesterday I talked to my marathon buddy Michelle for a while.  She told me she's actually worried about my mental state of mind going into this marathon.  I know everyone says that marathons are a very mental thing and it's a component I can't ignore that I need to really take seriously.  I admit, my spirit about this marathon has been damaged by this hip-flexor thing.  I feel like a marathon is a huge challenge when you are 100% physically okay and knowing that I'm going to this less than 100% makes it that much more intimidating.  I also hate the fact that I didn't do my last two long runs (12 and 8 miles).  While I did do a bunch of shorter runs, and it was taper anyway, it still makes me nervous that I missed two of my long runs and when I'm running it and searching for confidence, I won't have the knowledge that I did EVERY run I should have to prepare.  I also question what missing those runs may have done to my endurance.  It just...  bothers me.

What it really boils down to is that while I like trying new things and getting out there in the world, I am a calculated risk taker.  If I decide to take a risk- like running a marathon, I am not one of those people who signs up from day zero and says, "I am just going to start from nothing and get to 26.2 miles".  I am that person that waits til the absolute last minute I can to sign up and runs as close as I can to the actual distance (without going overboard) to see how I hold up so I can assess whether I think I can do it or not.  You may have noticed I didn't sign up for my marathon until after I'd already done a 19 mile run (and the cost was going up...I'm cheap!).  Basically if I'm going to take on something that scares me, I want to prepare myself as much as possible.  The injury has thrown a little bit of a wrench in my plans to be as prepared and confident as possible and have that confidence in knowing without much doubt I can do this. 

Last night I did a bunch of preparatory stuff for the marathon, and that seemed to help me perk up and get more excited.  I emailed my mom with some logistical questions since my parents are coming to cheer me on and scrape me off the ground take care of me after the race.  I also started thinking about what I'm going to wear and worked on editing and tweaking my Ipod playlist.  All of these things actually helped a lot in getting me excited rather than nervous for the race.  My spirit was much improved.

The best news is that I feel almost NO PAIN today.  I went in for my last appointment with Greenapple before the race today and got a little more A.R.T.http://www.activerelease.com/ on my leg and hip.  By the time I was done I was seriously grinning from ear to ear excited about the race.  I got back to work (I go during my lunch hour) and found Michelle to tell her how good my hip flexor is feeling and that I think I'm ready for this race!

Let's do this!!

12 comments:

evamadera said...

I'm totally with you on the ice/snow thing. We either got more or are worse prepared here in Greenville, SC because I have 4 days off so far. (I'm a teacher.)

Good luck on the marathon! (Which one is it?) I'll be rooting for you the whole time.

erika said...

hi- I don't think I've ever commented on your blog before but I have been reading it for the past several months. I'm going to offer you few words of encouragement. You will do GREAT! I've run 8 marathons. And i think all but 2 I have had some random thing that has kept me from tapering correctly. I had an injury that kept me from running at all for 3.5 weeks prior to the race. It didn't make for my fastest race, but it wasn't my slowest either. SO, just trust in all your past hard work and know that pain is only temporary! Soon you will be a marathoner! I'll be thinking of you and I know you will do great. GOOD LUCK!

Anonymous said...

Did you go to high school at Lawrence Academy? I went there and the photo in your life story looks like the side of the quad...

Alaina said...

Good luck!!! I know you'll do a great job; I've been following your training and you seem to be doing great on the long runs!

Glad to hear your leg is feeling better too. :-)

Brittney said...

Thanks for the encouragement everyone! I'm running the Charleston (SC) marathon.
Nope, I didn't go to Lawrence Academy. I guess all private boarding schools look similar...

Heather (Where's the Beach) said...

OH now that's just wrong that your boss didn't give you the 2 hours back. Luckily mine is really really good about that sort of thing. It sounds like you're pretty much ready for this marathon! Can't wait to hear the results.

Brittany @ A Healthy Slice of Life said...

I'll be cheering for you- you'll do GREAT!! I can't wait to hear your recap :)

Stephanie @ The Cookie Battle said...

Best of luck! You won't need it though because you are going to do great. Stay positive, keep your head in the game and ROCK IT.

YUMMama said...

Good luck on the race. Glad to hear that you are feeling better. I'm sure that you ladies will do awesome.

Kelly said...

Yay for no more pain! If it makes you feel better, I didn't do my last 12 miler because I had to push my 20 miler forward a few days b/c of the last snow storm we had. So technically, I didn't taper as long as I should. You're going to do great! I just know it!

Molly said...

Yay for no pain!! You sound like you're in the right place mentally...soooooo Good Luck!!! :)

runnerstrials.com said...

YAY! I am so glad you are excited for the race! Don't think about the "what ifs". It's water under the bridge. Just get out there and do your thing! Good luck :)

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