So, I swear I'm wrapping up my weekend recap, but just wanted to mention a couple things. For one, I actually RAN Sunday for the first time since...well I'm actually not sure when the last time I ran was, but it's been at least a couple weeks. I ran with my brother and did about a 40 minute run around Hoboken, up near the waterfront.
I forgot to bring a camera, but it looks like this:
And I basically looked like this:
Well, except I'm not an old dude with an orange shirt on... But you get the idea.
It's cool to run there though, because the NYC skyline is right across the river. Quite spectacular and scenic! I'm not going to lie though, it was a rough 3-4 miles after not having run much lately, and I'm actually a little sore, if that tells you anything. Getting sore after a run of that length is not the usual for me!
Now, at 3-4 months into this whole journey, I'm realizing how dumb I've been. Even though it's good to change some things and prepare for the possibility of a baby, I think I have gone a little overboard in putting my life on hold am no longer living the same way I used to, which I think has been kind of unnecessary. It would have been one thing if I'd been a heavy drinker, a person who eats paint chips, or a street whore- AKA: someone with tons of issues that need to be dealt with and resolved before a baby can safely be introduced to their life. But really, I was already doing everything I was supposed to by working out in moderation, eating a healthy diet, and keeping my mental sanity. I think if anything, the altering I've done has probably done nothing more than to make me nervous, antsy, and in a less good place to receive a baby. So in reevaluating things, I think it's time for me to take this back more towards the middle and start running some again and worrying less about everything I'm doing. People living normally and not paying attention to any of this stuff get knocked up easily every day. It seems to pay to be oblivious... So here's to obliviousness and we'll kind of try that for a while and see if it helps. Being the obsessive nut that I am, I'm sure I'm still going to err on the side of caution, but I'm going to try to be less paranoid about it than I've been if I can. I think trying to relax while trying to conceive is kind of a ridiculous notion. I will try though!