I thought about this one a bunch, and I think I know the answer. It's me.
Is it weird if I say myself? While I feel like I have an awesome network of friends and a great family, I think I have gotten myself through the biggest struggles I've gone through in my life.
The reason is because I was brought up to be very independent. My parents both worked (my mom was home with me when I was very little, but went back to work around the time I started school). They never hesitated to send me to sleep away camps, sleepovers, and got my brother and I used to doing our own thing and fending for ourselves all through growing up. I feel like I learned to be a really independent person and therefore, I am who got myself through the most.
I started college two hours away from home in NH and then halfway through college, my parents moved to SC and I transferred to Ohio State all by myself, about 11 hours drive from them and my New England friends and family.
I lived in Virginia by myself and made the decision to become a cop and go through the police academy by myself. I also got through the painful decision to change jobs and not be a cop anymore myself too.
I muddled through a life-changing move to Charlotte, largely by myself. I made new friends, became a running addict, and adapted to my new job and surroundings in Charlotte.
While I often leaned on friends, family, and Greg, I feel like mostly I did it on my own. I've just kind of had to do it myself with a pilot husband who is gone all the time, many friends and family members who are far away, and a lot of time by myself. It was up to me to be social, run, stay positive, and keep myself going. I took charge of my own happiness and got through it. I'm proud of the life I've created for myself here and I think it wouldn't be what it is if I hadn't worked hard to make it this way.