Who would I like to trade places with for a day? Ok, I think I'm going to go with anyone who is pregnant right now, since it's become such an overwhelming desire for me as of late.
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Here's a little update on what's going on. We've been through two cycles now and so far no luck. I KNOW it's still early and actually, cycle one kind of didn't even really count, because I pretty much knew we didn't "hit it" (no pun intended) at the right time, so I didn't really expect anything that month.
The second cycle was a disappointment for me though. I did think/hope that we had tried right at the right time on that cycle, since we were right smack in the middle of my cycle when I thought I would have been ovulating. I also hoped it would work for a few other reasons (besides the obvious wanting a baby):
#1. I would have loved to be due in November. We don't have many birthdays in the family around that time, and I would prefer that over December, which is kind of close to Christmas. Still, if it happens this month and I do end up being due in December, I will totally take it and not complain, just so that's clear!
#2. Greg's Birthday is today, and I was hoping I might find out I was pregnant just in time to give him a really cool present involving telling him I was pregnant. No such luck. Beer, a new head set for work, some shorts, and chocolate it is for his presents this year.
I've gotten into kind of a routine when it comes to each month now. The first two weeks of my cycle I live relatively normally. I eat sushi and deli meat, I have a beer if I want one, I drink caffeinated coffee, I do hand stands and back flips (ok, not really), whatever. Then for the second half of the cycle, I kind of have kid gloves on. I go back and forth about whether to eat/drink certain things, I get all paranoid about moving too much, I stop doing hand stands... Just in case, til I know for sure if I'm pregnant or not. I also analyze EVERY "symptom" to death. This past cycle I broke out a little, which is unusual for me, so I thought "Oh! Maybe I'm pregnant!". That sort of thing kept happening to me- things that seemed unusual kept giving me hope. I think that's just how it's going to be from now on. I definitely drive myself a little nuts in those two weeks in between ovulation and knowing. It's hard not to! I really don't know how people do this for years, and I pray I don't have to, because it makes you a little crazy!
So, that's the latest on that front. No baby or evidence of a baby yet. This month I'm going to try the Ovulation Predictor Kit, since I haven't exactly pinpointed for sure when I ovulate and the window I'm working with is probably a little bigger than it should be since online calculators give you about a week long window. I'm hoping knowing when I actually ovulate will help, but I also fear that it may be futile as there's a good chance I will get a reading that I'm ovulating when my husband is flying in distant lands. Anyway, we'll keep trying!!
If anyone currently or formerly pregnant has any advice, I'm all ears :)
